Song written By: Ben B. "Dear Lover"

Dear Lover

I was so sad about what

you said last night

you left a note by the door

with a rose just to be sure

and you said

Chorus:

Dear boy, I'm sorry about this letter

We've been running around circles and now it's over, dear boy

dear boy it's over now

and as we died I replied

Dear girl, I'm sorry I let this happen

I was so caught up in myself

And I signed it at the bottom little tommy from the sky

And I dotted my paper and smiled as I cried.

When I think back to when everything was alright I still can't believe

What I heard last night

How could you do it?

put a pen to the paper & black out my heart instead

you said..

*Repeat chorus*

*Bridge*

Dear lover can you hear me

When I wisper

and it's no lie that I will utterly miss her

Dear boy

Dear girl

I'm sorry about this

I'm sorry I let this happen

We've been running around in circles

I was so caught up in myself 

That I forgot my someone else 

and now it's over 

and I signed it at the bottom 

little Tommy from the sky

Dear boy, Dear boy

and I dotted my paper and smiled as I cried...

May 13,2009 Wednesday

Bible Verse Favorite:

Let no one look down on your youthfulness, But rather in speech,conduct,love,faith,purity,slow yourself an example of those who believe...

1timothy 4:12

Today Is a typical day Woke up my grandma took me to school, went to plus finish the worksheets now trying to finish my blogs, Then waiting for break. The go next door don't know what were doing. Then it was lunch and went in the PAC hanged there then bell rang 5th period started after that went home chilled at home then my friend picked me up head to Ben's Jazz/S-band concert went very fast and well the apologize song duet was amazing. Then it was over then after that a senior was going to ask a girl to Senior Ball and he sang a cute song he made up but use the background music of hey jude it was to cute. Everyone who was there was involved and sang the na na na part it was to cute then said goodbye to everyone and my friend took me home.

Tuesday May 12, 2009

So yesterday was an o.k day, Went to plus then we worked on a worksheet than we went next door and we just did a survey and talk over math and watch a documentry. Bell rang for lunch went to lunch went in the PAC and talked to my friends and then I saw my friend Kylie and walked up to her and gave her a note talked to her for a bit then saw Ben he came up to me kiss and hug then just stand next to me than the bell rang he grabbed my hand hug and said goodbye. Then My grandma was here and I went to do some stuff with her then went to go pick up my grandfather then we went to dinner than went home and my grandma and I watched a movie "Nights in Rodathe" it's a really good movie and sad. Then went to do my chores than watched american Idol after that watch 90210. Than I went on my laptop to finish some blogs than I was messaging some friends that sent me messages asking me questions about plus I answered some that I can answer and help them with.  Than Ben called talked to him for a bit and then I went to bed I could not sleep I woke up at 4 then went to sleep than woke up at 5 then went back to sleep than woke up 630 then slept than 730 I had a very hard night last night kept getting up. 

Monday May 11,2009

Today Ben picked me up in the morning went to school got there went in the band room and then the guys came in Sal came to me and said he saw the prom pictures that we looked very nice. Then Austin came and we were talking about his car how he should sell his bug and get a new working car. Then the bell rang and we walked to 1st period got there and I'm a T.A so we corrected papers etc. Then the bell ran and I went to class we had a brunch today since it was Monday and S-period So I walked out and I saw the guys and Kylie I was talking to her Ben came over to hug me then I talk to Kylie the whole time we were making jokes and stuff then the bell rang I was walking to my class and Ben came running to me and said no saying goodbye I was like sorry and we hugged goodbye then went to class then we class worked watch a documentary then the Bell rang for 5Th so I went to choir and we sang out side practicing since were singing at lunch then we went back in and went on the risers practice our other songs then we were done and we took a break till the bell rang and we had to be in front of the PAC to sing so we all were there and we sang 5 songs it was torch er I have to say It was over I went to go talk to my friends Ben comes out gives me hug then walks away and I was OK bye and then he turned and was like I'm sorry and I was like no it's fine then the bell rang and Ben grabbed my hand and walked then we said goodbye and I walked to my car getting picked up and Austin comes up to me and was like my grandparents love you I was like aw thank you I love your grandparents there very nice...

May 9,2009 Saturday Jr. Prom

Today was Junior Prom and woke up around 8am and cleaned I was picking up the House well everyone was asleep, My hairstylist was coming around 1030 or 11 So then heard the door knocked opened it, it was my hairstylist So we went in the Kitchen and got to work. She dyed and colored it and cut it to. Then she was all done around 130 2 she left my parents were gone Ben texts me saying I need to be at his house around 415 I called him said I can't do Kylie coming with me and she has to be at someones house around 445 to take pictures. Then he said OK BTW johnny said hi I said hi back and hanged up. Then watched t.v got dressed around 330 then it was 430 called Ben to see if he's ready he didn't answer so called his sister and she said he's in the shower which means he's barely getting ready. So I was like oh OK because he told me I should be at his house around 445 quarter to 5 and she's like just come over and we'll just take pictures of you I was like no thank you I'll leave on my own time I guess. Then Kylie came over and we left to Ben's house we get there walked up to the door Ben's mom answer's Ben comes downstairs and then we went in the back yard to take Pictures. My heels kept getting the grass one thing to remember never walk in heels on the grass then we went to the front to start leaving and we took pictures by the car. Then we all headed to Joe's house. We got there and the food was there and everyone was there with there dates we took so many pictures then we headed to the dance we got there and then we went to go put our stuff away it was 810 and no one was in the PAC so Ben and I walked in first and it was just the two of us and a slow song played and we danced. Then everyone started to come in. Joe and his date came and Joe and Ben were dancing in the middle of the dance floor and then I jumped in then Jimmy came and those three started dancing making funny cool moves. Then the dance began and everyone is dancing it was fun. Then the dance was over and Ben's dad took Kylie home and I was sleeping over there house so we went back to his house saw a slide show of the pictures of prom then went to the play room and watched a movie then we went to Bed and we all talked and went to bed around 3.

May 2, 2009 My 18th Birthday

Woke up about 12 in the after-noon went to the dryer to get some clothes then jumped in the shower then texted Ben if he still wanted to hang but never relied. So I ask my grandparents that the Beaman girl's wanted me to sleepover my parents said yes I packed a night bag then head to the play "South Pacific" last showing of the play. It was fun everyone wished me and Happy Birthday. The play was amazing fun also my grandfather came to see it then he went home and I stayed for the cast party Sal and Daniel were so funny than my friend took me to the Beaman's hiuse got there and the parents and Ben were watching a movie and the girls and I went upstairs and danced and talked a bit, Then Ben went upstairs and took me away we talked about like than it was movie time so us teens watched "Bridewars" and the parents went to Bed the movie was over and the girls went to the other room Ben and I talked till 4am how to communicate better and brought up memories. Then went to Bed.

May 1, 2009 Friday Play/Surprise Dinner

Woke up in the morning & took a shower wore a dress today Ben picked me up he sat in the back w/hot chocolate in his hand. Then we headed to school we get their and went to the band room talk to the guys than bell rang went to first period and Jenna wasn't here today, I corrected time lines today. Ben has swim Finals today and leaves after 3rd in 1st Ben G. was asking me why I'm not going to the finals I was like I'm sorry but can't. Bell rang and went out the door and Ben was gone didn't even say goodbye =[ walked w/ Jay and then went to plus. It was OK class today we had a sub in Science/ Math today , then left when lunched started, went home rested than went to the play @ 6 to get ready Kylie was doing my hair and then dropped the curling iron on my shoulder left me a burned mark. I screamed in the dressing room and said it stings and Kylie was like hush and i was holding it in. Than I walked out of the dressing room and saw Sal and was like Sal do you have ice and he's like I think the snack Bar does so I ran to the PAC and Mrs. Doyle was there and I asked her does she have ice and she's like sure why and I was like my friend burned me and she put ice on it and she wanted me to show her and I did then her husband was like you shouldn't ice it you should put a wet paper towel and let it sit there and so Mrs. Doyle gave me a paper towel and Put ice in it so it can melt. I went back to the band room the play went well and I was really tired but Ben,Austin,Hailey and Ryan were there I gave them a big hug and took pictures with them than my grandfather was in the car waiting, so i went to get dressed and walked to the car as I was walking to the car I saw Ben's mom and sisters so I walked over there to say hi saying that I'm really tired and going home now. Then I walked back to my car and my grandfather drove off and my grandma called and said she needed to talk papa so I gave him the phone. Then we got home got yelled at because of parking or something, then sat and watched t.v then my grandfather was like I'm hungry out of no where then got in the car and he said he wanted something Italian so I was like Olive Garden and he's like no I'm thinking Buca Di Beppo, I was like um OK random much so we found parking and got off the car as we're walking to the restaurant I saw Ben's mom car I was like hm that's weird maybe It's a surprise dinner just with my grandparents and Ben's family. So I walked in and I see Mrs.Doyle and her son Riley I was like wow hey you guys and Riley was like hey let me take you to your table I was like huh? you don't work here so he took me down through this hallway then walked out turned and It was Ben and all my friends screamed out surprise it was crazy I started to cry then sat and ate and talked and gave everyone hugs and thanking them for being here. I wasn't feeling to well tho i was tired from the play. But Ben was there,Zach,Daniel,Jay,Johnny,Hailey,Zoe,Izzie,Joe,Jeff,Jenny,Chazz,Jimmy,Alicia and Sal. I had a fun night didn't get out till midnight then we waited till the klink brother's get picked up. Ben's mom took me home the girl's, Ben and Zach and Sal were there in the car Ben's mom was going to take them home also. My day was done I opened presents and It was all cute.. 

Thanks to my boyfriend Ben who threw me and 18Th Birthday 

surprise dinner. =] I couldn't ask for the best 18th Birthday that my Boyfriend threw for me.<3